currently at th airport here ! :D i agree with Eos. free internet in airport rules ! :D weeweewee~! :D i'm so excited luh. :D but Dylan cried when we went in th gates. ): sad`ed luh. D: will miss him for 2 weeks. (: but at least i wont hear him screaming anymore. :p heheh. :D gotta go. i wanna see if i want to buy anything at th shops here. ;D bye & misses peepur ! :D till my next post. :D
farewell ! :D
hahahs !
i'm leaving this house in less than 12 hrs. :D i'm duper excited. :D i miss my cousins, aunts, uncles, grandparents, childhood friends & lotsa more ! :D i wouldn't actually mind if my parents suddenly announces tht we're staying there. :D but i'll miss peepur here, yeah ? :D omgomgomg. :D i miss playing in th middle of th road. i miss eating Filipino foods. i miss our house(s) and my relative's houses. i miss looking up at th sky at night time and trying to find th brightest star. i just plainly miss everything there. (: can't wait ! :D be back at 26 Dec. ! :D
i'm back and going !
hey peepur ! :D
i'm back ! but going. (:
my aching everything. -,- th first day's highlight was th night walk ! :D duper fun and i'm proud to say tht, i actually screamed my throat out for th first two stops ! :D second day was th dinner ? hahah. no luh, th cheer off(s) maybe. :p and today was th, water activities ! :D too bad i didn't get wet enough ! D: and we missed out 2 of th games ! D: and th next one was suppose to have been th most fun one. they wanted me to get wet since i was th most dry of all of my group. :D but, Ms.Chong luh .. whatevs. let's end tht with tht, okay ? (:
yeah, i'm supposedly going at 1 (something) am on Sunday. so .. BYE PEEPUR ! :D must tag me leh ! D: my tagboard is so dead, tht i'm itching to take it out. :D hahah. :D so yeah, see you guys after christmas ! :D
TAG REPLIES: Ummairah : okay ! :D sha : thx for th tag. (: rachael : hahah. but i nvr saw you there leh. anyways, must try hor. (: farisah! : hahah. okay. & i miss you too. :D
all out shoppage gone wrong.
sometimes, i hate shopping. seriously.
my mom took me for an all out shopping. -,- i didn't really want to neh. but we still did, but only at lot 1. and seriously, i'm completely happy with, my new bag, my stomach filled Subway & Famous Amos, and other bits and pieces. it's just tht, what she told me when we were going home, kicked me in th gut. i was all, HOLY MOTHERFUDGE ! why ? simple. she mentioned abt selling our house and stuff like tht. at first i thought she was joking then she gave me th motherload of all hell. she said tht my father was 'planning' to migrate to Australia. i DO NOT, repeat, DO NOT know what my parents are thinking. and she said it all jokingly so i'm not even sure if it's true. hell, i'd scream if it's true ! migrating once was BAD ENOUGH ! i mean, i was young then ! i wanted to be with my parents for crying out loud ! but now, i'm 13 ! a teenager. (i think.) and i know what it's like to move to a new country ! I DO NOT LIKE IT ! damnit, i even want to stay in Philippines for GOOD ! please, please, please .. for th sake of my sanity .. PLEASE let me get a say in everything before they decide. ARGH !
gawd. i need to calm myself down. this is BIG news. i'm not ENTIRELY sure if any is true. but i sure hope it's not. please let it be something tht my mom said for fun. please .. i NEVER want to go through everything all over again. i finally settled in here, faced and toughed out problems i had here. i DO NOT want any of tht to happen again.
please do not freak out if you see this or, (god, no) talk to my parents abt this. as i said, i'm not sure abt any of this. but i still hate th thought. but i doubt anybody will care even if you see this post.
open house.
heh. pic from yesterday. (:
geh. i'm effing tired.
today was WS open House.
quite fun luh, actually.
but fcking tiring, ya know.
my first group was 3girls and 1guy.
they were duper quiet luh.
walked arnd th school, BLAH.
i didn't even got to rest and i was with my 2nd group already.
3 families somemore.
Lizhen and Sumin followed us.
after tht, FINALLY had lunch.
and had my 3rd group with Madeline.
at least got companion right ? (:
and they wanted an 'express' tour, so, BOO-YEAH ! :D
zoom, zoom, zoom !
we actually went too fast luh, in my opinion.
so we let them look at th special rooms. (:
and our last stop was th hall. (:
let them look arnd, Madeline went to her friend,
so i went to th NCDCC booth. :D
geh. nothing did but talk to Leon.
then Lizhen and Sumin was there also, again.
kept pushing her back to NPCC where she belongs. -,-
screw ____. -,-
then she and Jamie go bully me. -,-
go back conference room, sit there do nothing.
debriefed, laughed, agreed. :D
i'm duper sleepy.
got basketball tomorrow ?
chee-WOW-wa. :D
went out to watch Beverly Hills Chihuahua with peepur. :D
but before tht, had open house rehearsal in school. but let's skip tht, shall we ? (:
heh. waited for peepur in BK while ate lunch. :B got Dynel off at Semb. recommended for him since Daboy, Diether & Arbie didn't go. i didn't know Jan was coming, kay ? so watched movie then ate. :B i went broke ! heh. but it was worth it, (x Chewy Juuniors ! :D:D:D walked arnd a bit, then went to th other building. went to th 'library' there. maybe it should be a playground. seriously. talked to Eos abt 'some' things, then went to find th others. (: we tried deciding for a sleepover date, and we decided ! :D we'll have it .. NEXT YEAR ! :D cool right ? (x then they went home, while i went to Eos's. :D:D:D
went to fetch my brother and, of course, hang out there until we go home. :D:D:D omgomgomg. :D i miss Diether. i miss Arbie. :D:D:D eheheh. :D when they were abt to go home, Diether spat at my face. serious. -,- jerky little twerp. at least Arbie just said bye to me lor. (: sat at th couch, not comfy. lie down at th bed, sleepy. -,- especially with a certain guitar being strummed to th song, Can't Help Falling In Love With You. duper nice song. :D special thx to Eos and Adiel for making me laugh, (x and get less sleepy. :D and, oh yeah, to Daboy tooooooooooooo. :D ahahaha, with tht teacup set thingie, xD slowly, slowly, getting sleepy. -,- ooh ! th earring is cute neh. :D LOL. at 8, we went home. decided not to stay for dinner luh. since i ate so so much. :p then talked abt our trips with TitaMalou while trying to wear my shoe. -,- maybe, maybe, got a slight chance tht we'll meet. who knows ? it's up to our parents, actually. said byeas, and went home ! :D
got WSSS Open House tomorrow. note: main reason why we can't stay for sleepover today. LOL. also tht, later get scolding since last minute and nvr bring clothes. LOL. wait for next year luh. :D
i know how to tie a tie ! :D
heh. 'you want sugar ? here, milk. ROFLMAO ! xD
no idea.
heh. i dont know why but .. i'm starting to post everyday. (big whoop.) -,-
geh. i dont think our promised sleepover is gonna come through. D: well, i know my house isn't gonna go for th idea. we're one week away from leaving, and we've already cleaned up our room. (barely.) so, it's a for-sure tht my father is gonna say no. D: so it depends on th rest, actually. but i dont think Eos's will go through either. like, duh, they're less than a week from going. heh. i wonder if we'll all see each other there, (: so, yeah .. Maan ? if we all can't tht just leaves th movie. okay ? (:
whoopwhoopwhoop ! :D i finally drew Berry. :D no fingers but, it's an achievement. :D you prob dont know what i'm talking abt. (x it's for th best you dont know. :D
push it away. (:
okayyyyyyyyyyy. let's push away th bad post. (:
i wanna watch lotsa movies. :D Beverly Hills Chihuahua, Four Christmases, Bolt, Igor, Twilight, Bedtime Stories. :D:D:D ahaha, :D but judging by th dates, i can only watch Beverly Hills Chihuahua here. th rest, idk. maybe i'll catch it in th Philippines. :D and i'll prob watch it with Eos, Maan, Danielle .. you know, th usual. (: maybe get Ralph to go tooooooooooooo. :D ahahaha, :D
geh. i want th Tap Tap Revenge on my iPod. }( but my father dont want to give me th acc. id. so, i can't install it. ): dumbfck. D:
TAG REPLIES: farisah! : LOL. it isn't Inuyasha anymore, hahaha. i kinda stopped reading th manga already. too much action, not enought 'connection'. know what i mean ? (x Fabian : huh, yeah. thx for asking. (: farisah! : ooh, hahaha. if you want, i'll teach you. (x
not understanding.
geh. , Warning: don't continue if you're not in th mood for reading something depressing. (at least, it's depressing for me. duh.)
i'm becoming pretty good at hiding my feelings. for as long as i can remember, i've been hiding them all inside. i've always felt under-appriciated. like nobody would care if i disappear. hell, th world would be a better place. i'm always second best. and in th past, always compared to my brother. sometimes i wonder if tht was why i always can't stand him. he was th tidy-one, th smart-one, th caring-one back then. i still remember when i have all my books and papers, scattered on th floor. and my brother's things were in his bag. i remember when i was sitting daydreaming, while my brother did his homework. i hated it. and to prove tht i can study, after so much criticism, i wrote out a quiz for myself. but did it work ? i dont remember. and when we got here, everything started to change. i was th tidy-one and he was th messy-one. but i was always lazy to study, yet i still get acceptable marks. there was no way i was going to stoop again to th level back then. i was glad tht i was out of tht stage. glad tht they wouldn't think i'm a slob or stupid.
but whenever i feel down, all those bad memories came flying back in my head. words like under-appreciated and unworthy kept ringing in my head, and i find myself crying to sleep. and th next day, i'm in moodswing mania. it doesn't help too when th next day is supposedly a school day. it makes my mood worse. and some ppl dont or wont even care if i get hurt. no matter what a person says, as long as it's an insult, it'll hurt no matter what you say next. even if you say tht it's a joke, or tht it's 'no offence', you can't take away th stab of th words.
speaking for myself isn't exactly a strong point of mine. i'd like to keep everything inside and let them figure it out, if they dont, i guess i cant do anything abt it right ? except bear th pain.
i'm being a party-pooper now, am i ? maybe you were expecting something jolly in this blog, and you find yourself reading this post. i DID warn you. back up there. i guess i can't help it, now and then this blog would be filled with stuff like these. it's my blog after all. personal or not, it's something to relieve me from stress. oh well ..
as long as it's an insult, it'll hurt no matter what else you say. or how you say it. (playfully.)
geh.
gayness nvr looked so cute, (x ahwekhwekhwek, xD
oh, nothing .. (: i just felt like posting tht, (x ROFL, :D:D:D
PPGZ.
ohmyfork.
--DELETED @ 7.33-- geh. realized it was a crap post. (: but nothing to post so .. just wanted to say i badly wanted to go to th bball game. -,- :D
TAG REPLIES: sha : linked you back. ehehe, not sure abt 'realiable'. (: farisah! : i know, right ? :D farisah! : geh. it's not who you think it is. who you're thinking is still dumped in my bag. rarely, touched. :D it's only a bunch of anime/manga characters, (x hwek. :B
ZzZzZzZ ..
geh.
i'm super duper sowee. D: please dont punish me. D: ahaha. :D i just couldn't wake up at 6, when i slept at 3. (: who'd get enough sleep from 3hrs ? anyway, i really gotta adjust my sleep time. it keeps getting later and later. -,- heh. :D
oh yeah, i'm in love with my notebook. (x why ? 'cause it has pics of -AHEM in there ! :D:D:D ROFLMAO, xD i printed it last night. :D which is prob why i slept so late. :p let's just say, our printer ran out of ink. :D
yadah, yadah, yadah. oh well, byeas for now. (: i'm waiting for our pizza to arrive. :D ahaha, :D you want one ? (:
ley's wing it. :D
hehehe, got nothing better to do so do this quiz lor, (x but before tht, lemme say these first. :D let's hope i dont oversleep later, (x
--QUIZ--
1. Five random facts about you : -i love KanataxMiyu paring. :D:D:D -i love my iPod Touch. :D:D:D -i'm hungry right now. :D:D:D -i write fanfictions. :D:D:D -but i never post them on th internet. :D:D:D
2. Fashion or food? hwek, food. :B
3. Ferrari or Lamborghini? Lamborghini
4. Date in a park or restaurant? beach luh, but park also can. :D
5. What is your favourite sport? basketball (?) (:
6. Name three hobbies write. read. laugh for no reason. :D
7. Mcdonalds or KFC? Burger King. :D:D:D
8. Any music talents? geh, wish i can play th guitar. (:
11. tag 10 people -eos. -farisah. -shiyun. -faith. -michelle. -anna. -hongrong. -junhao. -lizhen. -daboy. (ahaha ! :D)
12. Does 3 & 7 get along well? (shiyun, hongrong) guess so. :D
13. Do you think 5 & 8 will stead? (michelle, junhao) nah. junhao has ____ while michelle has diyuan. :D ahahaha. :D
14. Have you kissed 1? (eos) nope. (:
15. Describe 10. (daboy) geh. where should i start ? cocky, irritating, selfish, emo(?), etc. -,-
16. Do you love 6? (anna) ahaha, yesh. my stead leh. :D
17. Will you date 7? (hongrong) ahaha, no thanks, (:
18. How about 4? (faith) hwek, if she wants .. why not, yea ? :D
19. Are you close with 2? (farisah) hmmm, idk. yes ? no ? half-half ? (:
20. Lastly, are you happy with your life? let's answer this later in life, okay ? (:
--END--
childhood memories. (:
geh. it brings back memories. (: hehehe. (: actually, there's one more song missing. but there's no music video of it. sigh. great times, right cousins ? (:
oh yeah, what am i doing again ? well, according to my desktop, it's 12.50 am. (: and i'm still not finished with my camp reflection. -,- dont get me wrong, i know what to write. it's just tht i get distracted easily. (x geh. i still have a loooooooooooong way to go, damn. -,- i'm deciding whether to finish this tonight, or wake up early in th morning. *tick tock tick tock* think im'ma go with option 1. :D -yawn. sleep tight, peepur. :D
cannot sleep leh. it's 12.19 am according to what i see on my desktop. (: i'm still thinking of what to write as reflection. yeah .. Ms.Chan wanted me to write so she can submit to Rhino magazine. :S then i'm still deciding whether to go to CCK complex later, or sleep in. (: and, of course, there's th wednesday routine. but i think i'll skip tht. (x one reason being, they dumped all th stuff to me. -,- what ? you expect me to sit and look at th pictures all day, think of a witty caption for each one, and tape it to a piece of paper ? think not, bay-beh. :D i'd rather listen to my iPod all day. (gah. i missed it so much. 8D)
TAG REPLIES: YiHui ( Jovie ) : sure, will link you up soon, kay ? (: farisah! : hwek. i know. (x♥ FAITH. : done, dear. (:♥ anna : done, dear. (:♥ ♥'&TZE YEE : hello darling. :D hehehe, thx. (x ILYT ! :D♥ lizhen : how many push ups ? too many to count already luh. do so much until every freaking part of my body aches. and, heck no. i wont write tht part abt you and Sumin. i'm not dumb, yeah ? (: ILY ! xD♥ michelle : hello, cookiemonster. (: hehehe, loved back right at yah. :D♥
my bed ! ♥
i missed my bed, my pillow, my blanket. :D:D:D
camp was fun. but a bit torturous luh. -,- hwek, hwek, hwek. :B it was nice tht they let us sleep in th dance studio, (: at least got air-con and no insects. :B andandand, i finally got my badges and got promoted. :D:D:D eat my dust. (x and passed practical&theory rescue. as well as bronze footdrills. :D:D:D hwek, hwek, hwek. :B and no, i didn't mistake turn right to take dressing. (tht goes for Lizhen&JunHao. you know what i mean.) campfire night was high high high. :D somebody enjoyed th Friendship Dance very much, yeah ? (x but then, got ppl sabo me to do chicken dance. -,- and my group got th best performance for tht night. (x hahaha, I dont know group with their I dont know cheer. xD now i'm fcking tired. -,- my neck, shoulders and back aches. then i sneeze or cough, my stomach aches. GAH !
hell. idk what you ppl want to do. since nobody told me.
how to salute ? -,- hwek. :B
--[EDITED]-- dimples are cute. definitely. but doesn't necessarily mean you have to like th person who has them. (: hehehe, (:
this is for Anna`Stead. :D
1) What is your full name? heck. i wont tell you. -,- 2) Do you like your first name? hwek, hwek, hwek. depends. (x 3) How long have you liked the person you currently like? nobody right now. i finally found my senses. (: 4) Have you kissed anyone in the last 48 hours? no. but somebody kissed me. (x 5) Did you cry today? heck, no. (: 6) What are you doing this morning at 8am? hmm, i think i was eating breakfast with NCDCC cadets. if not, i was area-cleaning. (: 7) What are you doing an hour ago? eat sundae and fries at Mcdo, (x 8) What are you currently doing? breathing, typing, looking, sitting etc. (: 9) Who last texted you a msg? idk. i deleted everything right after i got back. :p 10) Have you told anybody that you love them today? ooh, not yet. maybe later. (: 11) Do you miss anyone now? yeah. D: 12) Any plans for tomorrow? heck, idk. maybe sleep all day and pig out. (my reward for lasting 3 days in tht camp. :p) 13) What was the reason behind the last time you cried? cannot remember. :x 14) Is there anyone you want to be with now? hwek, hwek, hwek. i wanna be with my long forgotten pillow. (: 15) Have you kissed anyone who's name starts with C? C ? i dont think so. 16) Name someone who make you smile today, how? hehehe, easy. th seniors with their 'Hi Jeffry' thing. (x 17) Name a friend whose name starts with 'Z'. Zanda. (: 18) Which of your friend stays closest to you? Janice Ong ? (: 19) Do you prefer to call or to text? text. 20) Was yesterday better than today? hell, yeah. :D 21) Can you live a day without tv and your phone? i just lived 3 days without it. now, i crave for it. 22) Are you mad about anything now? yeah. my body is aching because of th footdrills. }( 23) Do you ever think that relationships are really worth it? actually, no. i think they pull you down. 24) Last person you visited in a hospital? i dont remember. :x 25) When is your last and second last hug? Last Hug: Dylan. :D Second Last Hug: Eos. :D big gap right ? (x 26) What does the last text msg in your inbox says? no text. deleted already, (x 27) How do you feel about your life now? busy. busy. busy. sleepy. 28) Do you hate anyone? at times, yeah. a whole lot yeah. 29) Last person you called? Danna. (: 30) Who usually sent you the most texts in a month? tht depends if anything exciting in my life happens. but usually, it's Maan. 31) Is your room messy now? see for yourself. (: 32) Who will be mad if your room is messy? maid, mom, dad. -,- 33) Your shortest relationship? 0sec. :D 34) Who do you look like? me. (: 35) Tag 10 people to do this survey! 1-A 2-N 3-Y 4-B 5-O 6-D 7-Y 8-! 9-:D 10-:D
class bbq. :p
this is for Faith. :D if she didn't remind me, i would have forgotten to post abt it, (x i thought i already did, :x (xD)
CLASS BBQ DAY: okay, :D let's skip to when we arrived at East Coast Park. :D th group split into two, th girls on one pit, th guys on th other. mainly because th guys had cravings for pork. -,- yeah, so .. most of them ran to th bike rentals while a handful of us stayed to look after th things. went to th beach with Ummairah. so peaceful .. so breezy .. note: i wish my life this carefree .. after a while, i collected some seashells and such and played arnd th water. when some ppl came back, me & ShiYun ran to rent in-line skates. :D damnit. i guess i'm used to my own skates. note: this means i hated those skates. they almost made me fall everytime.
--BLAH--
accompanied Faith to rent skates. (: while we were going back to our pits, it started to rain. D: but me & Faith were slowly going there since, one, it was slippery. two, we both had skates on. and three, i was teaching her how to skate/supporting her as she skates. i had a feeling something was going to happen so, i brought my hoodie and an extra shirt. but i only used th hoodie though. -,-
--rain rain go away, come again some other day .. -- --little kids want to play, rain rain go away .. --
finally stopped raining heavily. -,- and everyone was super hungry. :S everyone tried to get fire started but couldnt. D: --BLAH. let's skip this whole part, shall we ?-- finally, everything ended. (sadly.) but they wanted to continue it in school. so .. go fig.
--THE END-- (:D)
misses and hugs. :D
oopsies, (x
yawn, yawn, yawn .. xO slept in and decided not to go to th continuation of th class bbq. ;p got a few hours on th com, and i started to get ready to go to sun plaza. my laziness was kicking in and i didn't want to go. -,- but, i was missing peepur. :D
i was 30 mins. early so i went to th library first. Maan came and we talked for a while, before we went down to meet Farisah. Eos was there, in Mcdonalds. :D hugged her. :D:D:D ate and waited for Farisah. --SKIP WHAT WE DID-- (;
me & Maan went to Eos's house to drop by Danielle's gift, (x it's late but, better late than never, :D then Diether & Noy(x2) came, (x hahaha, it's uber nice to piss them off, okay, (x talked, played and sent songs to each other, (x many many many many thanks to EOS ! :D ILY ! (x i craved for tht song, :D finally, decided to go home. (:
uh-oh. :x i guess my parents were mad, 'cause i didn't tell them where i went. >,< nehmindddddd, (x
what's th point of my tagboard, aber ? -,- remind me to finally take it out. (x
cure my addiction. -,-
i'm pissed. so SO pissed. }( i just wanna shout vulgars. }(
ARGH ! all these just because i'm addicting to mangas. -,- well, you cant judge me, since i still remember th times when i was just young, and i watched them. but i couldn't regularly watch them so, go figure. and now, i found them so, you cant blame me if i go berserk, just because i can't read or watch them. for reasons i fcked up dont understand. }( ARGH ! i wanna watch th remaining of Daa! Daa! Daa! (63-78) i wanna shout at th translators of th manga to hurry up, both Daa! Daa! Daa! and Shin Daa! Daa! Daa! ROAR ! }( =.= _l_
screw internet and those who say tht Daa! Daa! Daa! isn't finished yet. _l_ according to my 'research', it ran in th Philippines from 2001-2006 HOW CAN IT NOT BE FINISHED ?!? goddamnit. }(
yay !
currently at th airport here ! :D i agree with Eos. free internet in airport rules ! :D weeweewee~! :D i'm so excited luh. :D but Dylan cried when we went in th gates. ): sad`ed luh. D: will miss him for 2 weeks. (: but at least i wont hear him screaming anymore. :p heheh. :D gotta go. i wanna see if i want to buy anything at th shops here. ;D bye & misses peepur ! :D till my next post. :D
farewell ! :D
hahahs !
i'm leaving this house in less than 12 hrs. :D i'm duper excited. :D i miss my cousins, aunts, uncles, grandparents, childhood friends & lotsa more ! :D i wouldn't actually mind if my parents suddenly announces tht we're staying there. :D but i'll miss peepur here, yeah ? :D omgomgomg. :D i miss playing in th middle of th road. i miss eating Filipino foods. i miss our house(s) and my relative's houses. i miss looking up at th sky at night time and trying to find th brightest star. i just plainly miss everything there. (: can't wait ! :D be back at 26 Dec. ! :D
i'm back and going !
hey peepur ! :D
i'm back ! but going. (:
my aching everything. -,- th first day's highlight was th night walk ! :D duper fun and i'm proud to say tht, i actually screamed my throat out for th first two stops ! :D second day was th dinner ? hahah. no luh, th cheer off(s) maybe. :p and today was th, water activities ! :D too bad i didn't get wet enough ! D: and we missed out 2 of th games ! D: and th next one was suppose to have been th most fun one. they wanted me to get wet since i was th most dry of all of my group. :D but, Ms.Chong luh .. whatevs. let's end tht with tht, okay ? (:
yeah, i'm supposedly going at 1 (something) am on Sunday. so .. BYE PEEPUR ! :D must tag me leh ! D: my tagboard is so dead, tht i'm itching to take it out. :D hahah. :D so yeah, see you guys after christmas ! :D
TAG REPLIES: Ummairah : okay ! :D sha : thx for th tag. (: rachael : hahah. but i nvr saw you there leh. anyways, must try hor. (: farisah! : hahah. okay. & i miss you too. :D
all out shoppage gone wrong.
sometimes, i hate shopping. seriously.
my mom took me for an all out shopping. -,- i didn't really want to neh. but we still did, but only at lot 1. and seriously, i'm completely happy with, my new bag, my stomach filled Subway & Famous Amos, and other bits and pieces. it's just tht, what she told me when we were going home, kicked me in th gut. i was all, HOLY MOTHERFUDGE ! why ? simple. she mentioned abt selling our house and stuff like tht. at first i thought she was joking then she gave me th motherload of all hell. she said tht my father was 'planning' to migrate to Australia. i DO NOT, repeat, DO NOT know what my parents are thinking. and she said it all jokingly so i'm not even sure if it's true. hell, i'd scream if it's true ! migrating once was BAD ENOUGH ! i mean, i was young then ! i wanted to be with my parents for crying out loud ! but now, i'm 13 ! a teenager. (i think.) and i know what it's like to move to a new country ! I DO NOT LIKE IT ! damnit, i even want to stay in Philippines for GOOD ! please, please, please .. for th sake of my sanity .. PLEASE let me get a say in everything before they decide. ARGH !
gawd. i need to calm myself down. this is BIG news. i'm not ENTIRELY sure if any is true. but i sure hope it's not. please let it be something tht my mom said for fun. please .. i NEVER want to go through everything all over again. i finally settled in here, faced and toughed out problems i had here. i DO NOT want any of tht to happen again.
please do not freak out if you see this or, (god, no) talk to my parents abt this. as i said, i'm not sure abt any of this. but i still hate th thought. but i doubt anybody will care even if you see this post.
open house.
heh. pic from yesterday. (:
geh. i'm effing tired.
today was WS open House.
quite fun luh, actually.
but fcking tiring, ya know.
my first group was 3girls and 1guy.
they were duper quiet luh.
walked arnd th school, BLAH.
i didn't even got to rest and i was with my 2nd group already.
3 families somemore.
Lizhen and Sumin followed us.
after tht, FINALLY had lunch.
and had my 3rd group with Madeline.
at least got companion right ? (:
and they wanted an 'express' tour, so, BOO-YEAH ! :D
zoom, zoom, zoom !
we actually went too fast luh, in my opinion.
so we let them look at th special rooms. (:
and our last stop was th hall. (:
let them look arnd, Madeline went to her friend,
so i went to th NCDCC booth. :D
geh. nothing did but talk to Leon.
then Lizhen and Sumin was there also, again.
kept pushing her back to NPCC where she belongs. -,-
screw ____. -,-
then she and Jamie go bully me. -,-
go back conference room, sit there do nothing.
debriefed, laughed, agreed. :D
i'm duper sleepy.
got basketball tomorrow ?
chee-WOW-wa. :D
went out to watch Beverly Hills Chihuahua with peepur. :D
but before tht, had open house rehearsal in school. but let's skip tht, shall we ? (:
heh. waited for peepur in BK while ate lunch. :B got Dynel off at Semb. recommended for him since Daboy, Diether & Arbie didn't go. i didn't know Jan was coming, kay ? so watched movie then ate. :B i went broke ! heh. but it was worth it, (x Chewy Juuniors ! :D:D:D walked arnd a bit, then went to th other building. went to th 'library' there. maybe it should be a playground. seriously. talked to Eos abt 'some' things, then went to find th others. (: we tried deciding for a sleepover date, and we decided ! :D we'll have it .. NEXT YEAR ! :D cool right ? (x then they went home, while i went to Eos's. :D:D:D
went to fetch my brother and, of course, hang out there until we go home. :D:D:D omgomgomg. :D i miss Diether. i miss Arbie. :D:D:D eheheh. :D when they were abt to go home, Diether spat at my face. serious. -,- jerky little twerp. at least Arbie just said bye to me lor. (: sat at th couch, not comfy. lie down at th bed, sleepy. -,- especially with a certain guitar being strummed to th song, Can't Help Falling In Love With You. duper nice song. :D special thx to Eos and Adiel for making me laugh, (x and get less sleepy. :D and, oh yeah, to Daboy tooooooooooooo. :D ahahaha, with tht teacup set thingie, xD slowly, slowly, getting sleepy. -,- ooh ! th earring is cute neh. :D LOL. at 8, we went home. decided not to stay for dinner luh. since i ate so so much. :p then talked abt our trips with TitaMalou while trying to wear my shoe. -,- maybe, maybe, got a slight chance tht we'll meet. who knows ? it's up to our parents, actually. said byeas, and went home ! :D
got WSSS Open House tomorrow. note: main reason why we can't stay for sleepover today. LOL. also tht, later get scolding since last minute and nvr bring clothes. LOL. wait for next year luh. :D
i know how to tie a tie ! :D
heh. 'you want sugar ? here, milk. ROFLMAO ! xD
no idea.
heh. i dont know why but .. i'm starting to post everyday. (big whoop.) -,-
geh. i dont think our promised sleepover is gonna come through. D: well, i know my house isn't gonna go for th idea. we're one week away from leaving, and we've already cleaned up our room. (barely.) so, it's a for-sure tht my father is gonna say no. D: so it depends on th rest, actually. but i dont think Eos's will go through either. like, duh, they're less than a week from going. heh. i wonder if we'll all see each other there, (: so, yeah .. Maan ? if we all can't tht just leaves th movie. okay ? (:
whoopwhoopwhoop ! :D i finally drew Berry. :D no fingers but, it's an achievement. :D you prob dont know what i'm talking abt. (x it's for th best you dont know. :D
push it away. (:
okayyyyyyyyyyy. let's push away th bad post. (:
i wanna watch lotsa movies. :D Beverly Hills Chihuahua, Four Christmases, Bolt, Igor, Twilight, Bedtime Stories. :D:D:D ahaha, :D but judging by th dates, i can only watch Beverly Hills Chihuahua here. th rest, idk. maybe i'll catch it in th Philippines. :D and i'll prob watch it with Eos, Maan, Danielle .. you know, th usual. (: maybe get Ralph to go tooooooooooooo. :D ahahaha, :D
geh. i want th Tap Tap Revenge on my iPod. }( but my father dont want to give me th acc. id. so, i can't install it. ): dumbfck. D:
TAG REPLIES: farisah! : LOL. it isn't Inuyasha anymore, hahaha. i kinda stopped reading th manga already. too much action, not enought 'connection'. know what i mean ? (x Fabian : huh, yeah. thx for asking. (: farisah! : ooh, hahaha. if you want, i'll teach you. (x
not understanding.
geh. , Warning: don't continue if you're not in th mood for reading something depressing. (at least, it's depressing for me. duh.)
i'm becoming pretty good at hiding my feelings. for as long as i can remember, i've been hiding them all inside. i've always felt under-appriciated. like nobody would care if i disappear. hell, th world would be a better place. i'm always second best. and in th past, always compared to my brother. sometimes i wonder if tht was why i always can't stand him. he was th tidy-one, th smart-one, th caring-one back then. i still remember when i have all my books and papers, scattered on th floor. and my brother's things were in his bag. i remember when i was sitting daydreaming, while my brother did his homework. i hated it. and to prove tht i can study, after so much criticism, i wrote out a quiz for myself. but did it work ? i dont remember. and when we got here, everything started to change. i was th tidy-one and he was th messy-one. but i was always lazy to study, yet i still get acceptable marks. there was no way i was going to stoop again to th level back then. i was glad tht i was out of tht stage. glad tht they wouldn't think i'm a slob or stupid.
but whenever i feel down, all those bad memories came flying back in my head. words like under-appreciated and unworthy kept ringing in my head, and i find myself crying to sleep. and th next day, i'm in moodswing mania. it doesn't help too when th next day is supposedly a school day. it makes my mood worse. and some ppl dont or wont even care if i get hurt. no matter what a person says, as long as it's an insult, it'll hurt no matter what you say next. even if you say tht it's a joke, or tht it's 'no offence', you can't take away th stab of th words.
speaking for myself isn't exactly a strong point of mine. i'd like to keep everything inside and let them figure it out, if they dont, i guess i cant do anything abt it right ? except bear th pain.
i'm being a party-pooper now, am i ? maybe you were expecting something jolly in this blog, and you find yourself reading this post. i DID warn you. back up there. i guess i can't help it, now and then this blog would be filled with stuff like these. it's my blog after all. personal or not, it's something to relieve me from stress. oh well ..
as long as it's an insult, it'll hurt no matter what else you say. or how you say it. (playfully.)
geh.
gayness nvr looked so cute, (x ahwekhwekhwek, xD
oh, nothing .. (: i just felt like posting tht, (x ROFL, :D:D:D
PPGZ.
ohmyfork.
--DELETED @ 7.33-- geh. realized it was a crap post. (: but nothing to post so .. just wanted to say i badly wanted to go to th bball game. -,- :D
TAG REPLIES: sha : linked you back. ehehe, not sure abt 'realiable'. (: farisah! : i know, right ? :D farisah! : geh. it's not who you think it is. who you're thinking is still dumped in my bag. rarely, touched. :D it's only a bunch of anime/manga characters, (x hwek. :B
ZzZzZzZ ..
geh.
i'm super duper sowee. D: please dont punish me. D: ahaha. :D i just couldn't wake up at 6, when i slept at 3. (: who'd get enough sleep from 3hrs ? anyway, i really gotta adjust my sleep time. it keeps getting later and later. -,- heh. :D
oh yeah, i'm in love with my notebook. (x why ? 'cause it has pics of -AHEM in there ! :D:D:D ROFLMAO, xD i printed it last night. :D which is prob why i slept so late. :p let's just say, our printer ran out of ink. :D
yadah, yadah, yadah. oh well, byeas for now. (: i'm waiting for our pizza to arrive. :D ahaha, :D you want one ? (:
ley's wing it. :D
hehehe, got nothing better to do so do this quiz lor, (x but before tht, lemme say these first. :D let's hope i dont oversleep later, (x
--QUIZ--
1. Five random facts about you : -i love KanataxMiyu paring. :D:D:D -i love my iPod Touch. :D:D:D -i'm hungry right now. :D:D:D -i write fanfictions. :D:D:D -but i never post them on th internet. :D:D:D
2. Fashion or food? hwek, food. :B
3. Ferrari or Lamborghini? Lamborghini
4. Date in a park or restaurant? beach luh, but park also can. :D
5. What is your favourite sport? basketball (?) (:
6. Name three hobbies write. read. laugh for no reason. :D
7. Mcdonalds or KFC? Burger King. :D:D:D
8. Any music talents? geh, wish i can play th guitar. (:
11. tag 10 people -eos. -farisah. -shiyun. -faith. -michelle. -anna. -hongrong. -junhao. -lizhen. -daboy. (ahaha ! :D)
12. Does 3 & 7 get along well? (shiyun, hongrong) guess so. :D
13. Do you think 5 & 8 will stead? (michelle, junhao) nah. junhao has ____ while michelle has diyuan. :D ahahaha. :D
14. Have you kissed 1? (eos) nope. (:
15. Describe 10. (daboy) geh. where should i start ? cocky, irritating, selfish, emo(?), etc. -,-
16. Do you love 6? (anna) ahaha, yesh. my stead leh. :D
17. Will you date 7? (hongrong) ahaha, no thanks, (:
18. How about 4? (faith) hwek, if she wants .. why not, yea ? :D
19. Are you close with 2? (farisah) hmmm, idk. yes ? no ? half-half ? (:
20. Lastly, are you happy with your life? let's answer this later in life, okay ? (:
--END--
childhood memories. (:
geh. it brings back memories. (: hehehe. (: actually, there's one more song missing. but there's no music video of it. sigh. great times, right cousins ? (:
oh yeah, what am i doing again ? well, according to my desktop, it's 12.50 am. (: and i'm still not finished with my camp reflection. -,- dont get me wrong, i know what to write. it's just tht i get distracted easily. (x geh. i still have a loooooooooooong way to go, damn. -,- i'm deciding whether to finish this tonight, or wake up early in th morning. *tick tock tick tock* think im'ma go with option 1. :D -yawn. sleep tight, peepur. :D
cannot sleep leh. it's 12.19 am according to what i see on my desktop. (: i'm still thinking of what to write as reflection. yeah .. Ms.Chan wanted me to write so she can submit to Rhino magazine. :S then i'm still deciding whether to go to CCK complex later, or sleep in. (: and, of course, there's th wednesday routine. but i think i'll skip tht. (x one reason being, they dumped all th stuff to me. -,- what ? you expect me to sit and look at th pictures all day, think of a witty caption for each one, and tape it to a piece of paper ? think not, bay-beh. :D i'd rather listen to my iPod all day. (gah. i missed it so much. 8D)
TAG REPLIES: YiHui ( Jovie ) : sure, will link you up soon, kay ? (: farisah! : hwek. i know. (x♥ FAITH. : done, dear. (:♥ anna : done, dear. (:♥ ♥'&TZE YEE : hello darling. :D hehehe, thx. (x ILYT ! :D♥ lizhen : how many push ups ? too many to count already luh. do so much until every freaking part of my body aches. and, heck no. i wont write tht part abt you and Sumin. i'm not dumb, yeah ? (: ILY ! xD♥ michelle : hello, cookiemonster. (: hehehe, loved back right at yah. :D♥
my bed ! ♥
i missed my bed, my pillow, my blanket. :D:D:D
camp was fun. but a bit torturous luh. -,- hwek, hwek, hwek. :B it was nice tht they let us sleep in th dance studio, (: at least got air-con and no insects. :B andandand, i finally got my badges and got promoted. :D:D:D eat my dust. (x and passed practical&theory rescue. as well as bronze footdrills. :D:D:D hwek, hwek, hwek. :B and no, i didn't mistake turn right to take dressing. (tht goes for Lizhen&JunHao. you know what i mean.) campfire night was high high high. :D somebody enjoyed th Friendship Dance very much, yeah ? (x but then, got ppl sabo me to do chicken dance. -,- and my group got th best performance for tht night. (x hahaha, I dont know group with their I dont know cheer. xD now i'm fcking tired. -,- my neck, shoulders and back aches. then i sneeze or cough, my stomach aches. GAH !
hell. idk what you ppl want to do. since nobody told me.
how to salute ? -,- hwek. :B
--[EDITED]-- dimples are cute. definitely. but doesn't necessarily mean you have to like th person who has them. (: hehehe, (:
this is for Anna`Stead. :D
1) What is your full name? heck. i wont tell you. -,- 2) Do you like your first name? hwek, hwek, hwek. depends. (x 3) How long have you liked the person you currently like? nobody right now. i finally found my senses. (: 4) Have you kissed anyone in the last 48 hours? no. but somebody kissed me. (x 5) Did you cry today? heck, no. (: 6) What are you doing this morning at 8am? hmm, i think i was eating breakfast with NCDCC cadets. if not, i was area-cleaning. (: 7) What are you doing an hour ago? eat sundae and fries at Mcdo, (x 8) What are you currently doing? breathing, typing, looking, sitting etc. (: 9) Who last texted you a msg? idk. i deleted everything right after i got back. :p 10) Have you told anybody that you love them today? ooh, not yet. maybe later. (: 11) Do you miss anyone now? yeah. D: 12) Any plans for tomorrow? heck, idk. maybe sleep all day and pig out. (my reward for lasting 3 days in tht camp. :p) 13) What was the reason behind the last time you cried? cannot remember. :x 14) Is there anyone you want to be with now? hwek, hwek, hwek. i wanna be with my long forgotten pillow. (: 15) Have you kissed anyone who's name starts with C? C ? i dont think so. 16) Name someone who make you smile today, how? hehehe, easy. th seniors with their 'Hi Jeffry' thing. (x 17) Name a friend whose name starts with 'Z'. Zanda. (: 18) Which of your friend stays closest to you? Janice Ong ? (: 19) Do you prefer to call or to text? text. 20) Was yesterday better than today? hell, yeah. :D 21) Can you live a day without tv and your phone? i just lived 3 days without it. now, i crave for it. 22) Are you mad about anything now? yeah. my body is aching because of th footdrills. }( 23) Do you ever think that relationships are really worth it? actually, no. i think they pull you down. 24) Last person you visited in a hospital? i dont remember. :x 25) When is your last and second last hug? Last Hug: Dylan. :D Second Last Hug: Eos. :D big gap right ? (x 26) What does the last text msg in your inbox says? no text. deleted already, (x 27) How do you feel about your life now? busy. busy. busy. sleepy. 28) Do you hate anyone? at times, yeah. a whole lot yeah. 29) Last person you called? Danna. (: 30) Who usually sent you the most texts in a month? tht depends if anything exciting in my life happens. but usually, it's Maan. 31) Is your room messy now? see for yourself. (: 32) Who will be mad if your room is messy? maid, mom, dad. -,- 33) Your shortest relationship? 0sec. :D 34) Who do you look like? me. (: 35) Tag 10 people to do this survey! 1-A 2-N 3-Y 4-B 5-O 6-D 7-Y 8-! 9-:D 10-:D
class bbq. :p
this is for Faith. :D if she didn't remind me, i would have forgotten to post abt it, (x i thought i already did, :x (xD)
CLASS BBQ DAY: okay, :D let's skip to when we arrived at East Coast Park. :D th group split into two, th girls on one pit, th guys on th other. mainly because th guys had cravings for pork. -,- yeah, so .. most of them ran to th bike rentals while a handful of us stayed to look after th things. went to th beach with Ummairah. so peaceful .. so breezy .. note: i wish my life this carefree .. after a while, i collected some seashells and such and played arnd th water. when some ppl came back, me & ShiYun ran to rent in-line skates. :D damnit. i guess i'm used to my own skates. note: this means i hated those skates. they almost made me fall everytime.
--BLAH--
accompanied Faith to rent skates. (: while we were going back to our pits, it started to rain. D: but me & Faith were slowly going there since, one, it was slippery. two, we both had skates on. and three, i was teaching her how to skate/supporting her as she skates. i had a feeling something was going to happen so, i brought my hoodie and an extra shirt. but i only used th hoodie though. -,-
--rain rain go away, come again some other day .. -- --little kids want to play, rain rain go away .. --
finally stopped raining heavily. -,- and everyone was super hungry. :S everyone tried to get fire started but couldnt. D: --BLAH. let's skip this whole part, shall we ?-- finally, everything ended. (sadly.) but they wanted to continue it in school. so .. go fig.
--THE END-- (:D)
misses and hugs. :D
oopsies, (x
yawn, yawn, yawn .. xO slept in and decided not to go to th continuation of th class bbq. ;p got a few hours on th com, and i started to get ready to go to sun plaza. my laziness was kicking in and i didn't want to go. -,- but, i was missing peepur. :D
i was 30 mins. early so i went to th library first. Maan came and we talked for a while, before we went down to meet Farisah. Eos was there, in Mcdonalds. :D hugged her. :D:D:D ate and waited for Farisah. --SKIP WHAT WE DID-- (;
me & Maan went to Eos's house to drop by Danielle's gift, (x it's late but, better late than never, :D then Diether & Noy(x2) came, (x hahaha, it's uber nice to piss them off, okay, (x talked, played and sent songs to each other, (x many many many many thanks to EOS ! :D ILY ! (x i craved for tht song, :D finally, decided to go home. (:
uh-oh. :x i guess my parents were mad, 'cause i didn't tell them where i went. >,< nehmindddddd, (x
what's th point of my tagboard, aber ? -,- remind me to finally take it out. (x
cure my addiction. -,-
i'm pissed. so SO pissed. }( i just wanna shout vulgars. }(
ARGH ! all these just because i'm addicting to mangas. -,- well, you cant judge me, since i still remember th times when i was just young, and i watched them. but i couldn't regularly watch them so, go figure. and now, i found them so, you cant blame me if i go berserk, just because i can't read or watch them. for reasons i fcked up dont understand. }( ARGH ! i wanna watch th remaining of Daa! Daa! Daa! (63-78) i wanna shout at th translators of th manga to hurry up, both Daa! Daa! Daa! and Shin Daa! Daa! Daa! ROAR ! }( =.= _l_
screw internet and those who say tht Daa! Daa! Daa! isn't finished yet. _l_ according to my 'research', it ran in th Philippines from 2001-2006 HOW CAN IT NOT BE FINISHED ?!? goddamnit. }(
